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five years ago--
we were all elbows and sheltered self-esteems. we weren’t noticing each other except for bumping knees and walking into each other when walking around corners. we were nameless faces in the middle of the dance floor and hesitant hands touching. i was teaching you how to move gawky feet and a stiff spine, you were hitched-laughter fogging over my ear. we were wide eyes and gangly legs and fast music. we were bubble-gum-breath and coca-cola-fingers, breaking apart like nervous colts at the end of the song.

and all the parents said: ‘look, how sweet, she’s his first dance.’

two years ago--
we were all chewed-on-lips and wrung-together fingers. we were orbiting alone until we crashed blindly together. we were reintroducing with shaking hands and getting swung onto the dance floor with free-falling-breath. you were taller, faster, taking my old moves and spicing them with your own. you were flipping me over your arm and i was hovering my mouth over your collarbone. we were letting our lips get acquainted in the middle of fields, hands cupping faces and backs pressed to white trucks.

and all the parents said: ‘look, how sweet, he’s swept her off her feet.’

one and a half years ago--
we were meeting on cyber plateaus in the middle of the continent between us. we were shyly circling the history and laughing over shared tastes in humor. we were asking questions never asked with steamed breath during pressed-close dances. you were asking about my words, my job, my dreams. i was asking about your numbers, your uniform, your girl. we were gentle laughter and quiet excitement for the next summer.

and all the parents said: ‘look, how sweet, they’re building a friendship.’

one year ago--
we were quivering-hands and tripping-words-hello. we were sitting on truck beds outside small town bowling alleys and laughing down the river with the boat humming beneath your fingers. you were sitting in your parked white truck and i was leaning on the window. we were bright eyes and collared words. we were dancing under drunk stars in the shadow of her. we were trembling palms on arched backs and cheeks resting on broad shoulders. we were driving down dusty highways blinded with tears and the sun in the rearview mirror.

and all the parents said: ‘look, how sweet, she’s going to miss him.’

today--
i am living in silence, i am drinking whiskey-laced-memories every night and racing down gravel roads until my lungs are collapsing and my veins are tangling together. i am painting your face in violent reds on my walls and bleaching my heart every morning to get rid of your stain. i am writhing when i think of her, i am dissecting your every word and every silence until i am in the middle of a bunch of syllables that don’t mean anything at all.

and the parents said nothing at all. nothing at all.
{"i said cowboy take me away
fly this girl as high as you can into the wild blue
set me free, oh, i pray, closer to heaven above
and closer to you, closer to you"
--dixie chicks

fuck.
this one stung.

[and just to clarify: the guy in question in this piece is a really great guy. if anything hurt me, it's distance.]
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FerahW Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2012
Simply amazing. So touching, beautiful and well-written, I loved every part of it and had to add it to my favorites. You are absolutely incredible, keep up the good work! :)
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NaomiJones Featured By Owner Mar 16, 2012
speechless people that have been through emotions that leave you feeling like this most likely see this in the same way as I do. I love the line 'bleaching my heart every morning to get rid of your stain'
favourite and love (:
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:iconthefireflyliberation:
thank you! i am really glad that you enjoyed it.
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Alexandra-or-Emily Featured By Owner Aug 1, 2011  Student Writer
:( randomly reading and looking at crying pics and listening to some of my favorite country songs and I ended up listening to that song while reading it now the tears are falling again.
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Its-Kezzzzzzzzzz Featured By Owner May 5, 2011  Hobbyist General Artist
I just happened to be listening to this song as I read this, and wow does it fit well.
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moonsierra Featured By Owner Mar 18, 2011
Wow, touching. You inspired me to write a new poem :) IT reminds me of someone I love...and may never get over.
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babeebee Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2011
Wooow. This is amazing, and really sad. Reminds me of something simiular that happened to be awhile ago.
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:iconsommerfield-akatsuki:
One word...amazing. this is beautiful and dramatic. i luv it
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mickmouse13 Featured By Owner Jul 9, 2010  Hobbyist Digital Artist
I can't putt it any better than any of the other comments.. but wow.. a true story that leaves others who have nothing to do with you in tears. amazing story and great pacing. i know just how distance can be..
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saphire456213 Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
Heartwrenching. Breathtaking. Beautiful.
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Lexa91 Featured By Owner Apr 25, 2010
i like the ending so much :love: .. i mean not as what happened in the end but how you said it , and the part with "i am painting your face in violent reds on my walls and bleaching my heart every morning to get rid of your stain." it is absolutely :love: , well .. you understand what i mean ..
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:iconthefireflyliberation:
oh, thank you so much! :heart:
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OceanLore Featured By Owner Dec 30, 2009  Student Photographer
This doesn't bring back memories like it has for some. It has almost created ones that's never happened. This hurts like I've actually gone through it but nothing of the sort has happened to me. It's like falling into a favorite book and feeling what the character is feeling. This is amazing, maybe one of my favorites from you.
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thefireflyliberation Featured By Owner Jan 2, 2010
oh wow, thank you so much. it really means a lot, especially on this piece.
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AJdesolate Featured By Owner Oct 29, 2009
wait, did he meet someone else who lived closer?

distance kills, i'm sorry.
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:iconthefireflyliberation:
it's complicated. we lived far away and met up during the summer, then he went even farther away for college and met someone there. we were never a couple, we've just had some intense time together, if that makes any sense at all.
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fishtalkcomics Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2009
this is a heartwrenching story i hate distance even with all the technology in the world distance is still so painful i can relate to this both your point of view and at the same time the guys cept your guy didnt purposefuuly break your heart like i did to ligeia ugh i still have regrets
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:iconthefireflyliberation:
distance ruins everythingg :[
i'm sorry it hurt you
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fishtalkcomics Featured By Owner Oct 16, 2009
dont apologize its just a blast from the past i havent thought about in awhile and distance truly ruins everything, love is strong but not that strong sadly haha i sound like such a sissy haha thanks alot for bringing this side out :P
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50calWolf Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2009
i wish i had that effect on a girl. some people have all the luck
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:iconthefireflyliberation:
bah, i don't know if you'd call that luck D:
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50calWolf Featured By Owner Oct 10, 2009
i would, becuase apperently i have none of it
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joel55555 Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2009  Hobbyist General Artist
That is so sad (but still a kind of brilliance I rarely see...)

I really like it!
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thefireflyliberation Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2009
thank you soso much.
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WriterForLife Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2009
I sometimes wonder why I bother to write when I'm the only one who ever reads it. It sometimes feels like I'm wasting all my time on writing useless plots and characters only to greet rejection after all that effort. So then I quit. I put away all my pens, papers, and pencils and I find another hobby to occupy myself in. And I begin to hate writing. But then when I read all the raw emotion behind your words and the perfect synchronization and harmony those syllables create, I begin to fall in love with writing again. And I realize the reason why I ever loved writing in the first place.

You have the ability to inspire people with your writing.
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thefireflyliberation Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2009
that means so much more to me than i could ever explain.
never ever stop writing, love. and if you think no one is reading -- send me a note.
i'd love to read something of your's.
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WriterForLife Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2009
Wow. I can't believe you actually reply to comments. And I can't believe you aren't published yet!!! Sorry if I sound like a stalker or anything, but you are so incredibly amazing. Like seriously. I rarely ever call somebody amazing or incredible, but you just blow my mind away.

Oh, and about the you inspiring me part? I love you for that. Thank you.
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thefireflyliberation Featured By Owner Oct 5, 2009
are you kidding? replying to comments is one of the highlights of my day.
and i hope more than anything to get published in the future.
and trust me, you don't sound like a stalker. it's just incredibly humbling.
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Spamuel Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2009   Writer
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thefireflyliberation Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2009
i will raise your ! and see you to !!
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IrishIleana Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2009
:tighthug:
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BananaGirl48 Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2009
I don't even know what to say, I just want to comment because it's an amazing poem. You are incredibly talented at getting feelings onto paper. I try to write, but I could never do it like that. Please, feel better soon.
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thefireflyliberation Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2009
that really means a lot to me. thank you.
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Euphoric-Beauty Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2009  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Beautiful piece.
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thefireflyliberation Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2009
thank you so much.
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loveless996 Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2009  Hobbyist Digital Artist
OMG this is sooo damn amazing!!!!!
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thefireflyliberation Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2009
haha thank youu!
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loveless996 Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2009  Hobbyist Digital Artist
welcome
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Das-Ve-Danya Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2009
So distance continues to be a sever thorn in not only my side but your's as well. It is horrible. Hope your good, I just read this and I am blown away. You've made me feel a lot of emotions. Thats the mark of a great writer, at least that's what I think. ^^
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thefireflyliberation Featured By Owner Oct 1, 2009
oh thank youu :]
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matt-1308 Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2009  Student Digital Artist
:'(
You're beautiful. An amazing person and a beautiful writer. Don't let anybody tell you otherwise.
:hug:
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:iconthefireflyliberation:
that is soso nice. thank you so much.
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matt-1308 Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2009  Student Digital Artist
You're very welcome. :hug:
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caimito Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2009
god that hit home. the guy i've accidentally fallen in love with has a...her (a very, very complicated her, with a very, very complicated twist), but there's all of this...us...intertwined in there somehow, and i'm living off that us, even if it's just in my mind. yet there's some nights when it hits me, that he's someone i can't picture my life without, but yet he's already gone, and i never really had him to begin with. it's...everything you just wrote. <3
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:iconthefireflyliberation:
ohh, love, i know exactly what you mean.
the not-being-able-to-live-without-him but i-never-really-had-him-in-the-first-place.
it stings more than people who've never been in that situation can understand.
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caimito Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2009
Agreed. I think it stings more than even he can understand. *sigh*
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ebonyluv Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2009  Hobbyist Writer
This is just incredible.

I'm speechless.

But I'm glad you wrote this, even though it was probably hard.
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:iconthefireflyliberation:
thank you soso much. it was hard, but it was good therapy for me.
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Loisdotcom Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2009
Lovely. Simply lovely, in a tragic way. :heart:
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