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October 8, 2009
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i need you to put down the pencil and listen to me for a second. i need you to pause your breath and tune to my frequency. because i’m throwing my heart on the airwaves and i need you to be alive to hear it. i need you to follow my words even when they’re stumbling, tripping, falling on their face.

this is just going to take a second. i promise.

i think you should know that when i woke up today i was tangled in morning breath and your whispers. i think you should know that i’m dreaming with swollen lips and bleeding cheeks because i keep biting down to stop myself from saying what’s on my mind. i think you should know my mouth is betraying me and when i brush it off, what i mean is, please, for the love of everything, know that i am terrified.

and, i think you should know, despite the fact that i am trembling with needs, i don’t want it. i don’t want to count down the seconds and drag out my day. i don’t want to have to constantly dislodge my heart from the back of my throat when you don’t even know that you jammed it there. i don’t want to write instructions on how to breathe on my walls because suddenly i’m constantly needing a reminder.

i don’t want this.

because it blindsided me, it plucked me off my track and threw me into another orbit. i was happy with where i was going and suddenly i’m holding my head between my hands with my tongue getting stuck in the why’s. i’m beating my dashboard because i didn’t ask for this. i’m incoherent and confused and blindfolded and lost in the middle of the city.

you should know i could pick better. if i wanted to trip like this, i’d find someone safe. i’d find someone with arms around my waist who would make sure i didn’t slam my jaw on the concrete. not this. i wouldn’t choose to fall without a net. i wouldn’t choose to choke up my heart and spit it out at your feet. but i didn’t choose, my tires slipped on the black ice and i’m careening out of control. i don’t have a choice, i’m  pretending to clutch the wheel but no one knows better than me that i’m going to crash into the center divider.

i guess what i’m saying is: i need you.
i guess what you need to know is: it makes me mad as hell.
{"even the best fall down sometimes
even the wrong words seem to rhyme
out of the doubt that fills my mind
i somehow find, you and i collide"
--howie day

full title: i think i might need you, but i sure as hell don't want you.

my name is megan and i have a submission problem.
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alemangaanimelover Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2012  Student Filmographer
it is awesomee....
exactly i need him but dont want him..
so cool
Fragile-Capricorn Featured By Owner Sep 29, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
wow i love this peice, its kind of what i wanted to say to someone but didnt know how
Hadilakk Featured By Owner Sep 7, 2012  Hobbyist Artist
wow....its complex but beautiful....
EmeraldIce Featured By Owner Aug 7, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist

Hi :aww: Your wonderful work has been featured in my new journal - ..:: !dAs' 12th Birthday Art Featurama! ::..:party:

:iconsmallheartplz: :penguin: :bye:
Awesomemyself Featured By Owner Jul 14, 2012  Hobbyist Artist
That is soooo sweet!
I love It!
royishot Featured By Owner Jun 13, 2012  Hobbyist Artist
.... this is so sweet...........
Cheynaynaybuttercup Featured By Owner Mar 27, 2012
this is so amazingly perfect!!!! >//<
i don't know about perfect...but thank you!
VivienMelsDans Featured By Owner Oct 28, 2011
this is so perfect.
Communist-Love-Song Featured By Owner Oct 4, 2011  Student Filmographer
My name is Kappa and this is amazing. Brilliantly composed, beautifully original, and completely deserving of a :+fav:
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